Grrr

Clearly I have not written a post in a while. It might even be the longest I've ever gone without blogging  since I started nearly three years ago.

I suppose you could call it "writer's block" but that's not exactly it.

The real reason I haven't written any new posts in so long is a bit more complex. And for the sake of honestly here it is...

I didn't want yet another post about how hard things have been with Tessie. I mean, they must all start to sound the same after a while. So instead, I have been patiently waiting for something to write about that would be funny. Light hearted. A little anecdote to maybe make you laugh. Something that I could say to myself, "Aha! This would make a funny post."

And so, my little blog has been very quiet.

The last few weeks have been brutal in regards to Tessie. As in, I want to bawl my eyes out and/or smack-the-ever-loving-crap-out-of-someone, brutal.

Remember a couple of posts ago how I talked about Tess needing bilateral hip surgery sometime in the next six months? Well, the next appointment she has with the Orthopedic Surgeon is not until April and even then it is only a consult, which wouldn't be a big deal except now my little Toodle Bug is in pain. A lot of pain. Wake up in the night, sobbing her little heart out pain. I can actually watch her pupils dilate from it. She cries some during the day as well but it mostly hurts at night. Which makes for long nights and a third person in the bed. Which makes for a tired mama and daddy. And you can imagine how happy being over-tired and over-stressed is making us.

The docs in charge have tweaked her medications a few times to try to control the pain and right now, finally, it seems like it might be working.

But here's my beef. WHY aren't they just scheduling the GD surgery?!?! WHAT reasoning are they using that tells them that it is better to ADD medications and drug the kid up for the next THREE MONTHS AT LEAST rather than deal with the problem?

I just don't get it.

But I will. Because tomorrow I am calling Boston and I refuse to give up until I speak with her surgeon.

No kid deserves to be made to live in pain. Especially pain that the doctors already know needs to be addressed with a major surgery. Especially when the wait for an appointment means three more months of pain and the side effects of the medications used to treat it.

Especially Tessie Toodles.

In the words of her pediatrician, "You don't want to bring mama bear out of the cave."

Well guess what?  Grrr.